Had a random thought recently
If being gnc/fem is not real as some people would claim it's just a phase before beoming trans, if being gnc/fem is a delusion, a form of denial, then why should I fight the consensus, why not just call myself trans even though that label absolutely does not fit me, which I'll get into in a moment. This problem is especially widespread on Tumblr, I should just block those folks and move on, but I feel that ignoring them only contributes to the issue.
Biggest thing that makes me think about is in fact how those same people are insisting that gnc-presenting characters are all somehow trans, Felix Argyle from Re.Zero, TRANS, that one police tomboy from Persona 4, TRANS, most recent example being Ralsei Deltarune even though he is fine with being referred to with he/him pronouns, Kris is clearly nonbinary, Pink is clearly trans and has DID, but Ralsei comes off as a femboy to me and that's how he feels like he is written to me. Conversely, Susie is a tomboy.
Like isn't there at least a basic commitment to being trans? Not surgery, hrt and stuff idgaf and some folks can't afford them whatsoever, but at least to maintain a trans identity? (I don't believe in transmed stuff, you are trans if you think you are!) Because thing is I have 0 interests in maintaining a trans identity, I don't feel bad in my skin, I am not experience any discomfort being a man (it's not internalized transphobia, that is actually how I feel about myself) and to me the feelings that trans people go through are completely alien to me like the dysphoria, the feeling that they were born in the wrong body, etc (and tbf it's also true in my regard, people who didn't live what I lived really don't seem to understand me). I'd even go as far as to argue my interests in feminity is just a fetish like infantilism and abdl in general and all that toony wackadoodle stuff and I am very much a dictionary definition of an autogynephile (word that has actually been used as a slur against transpeople), but not quite... now tbf I like sissy stuff yes but also my ideal body would have both a huge dick and large breasts, see "gynomorph" on e621, just about any examples would do. So if I ever take hrt it's to grow tiddies, I'll probably also take testosterones simultaneously to prevent issues with my boyhood. Anyway I either never noticed it or it was a recent development but transpeople really want to place themselves at the center of issues or identities like they act like I, no, we don't exist or aren't valid which is just bigotry in itself I'm sorry.
But hey as I said if femboys, twinks and sissies aren't valid, if they're horrible transphobic slurs on the same level as that one word that starts with "T" that I am obviously not gonna spell out I'll just call myself "trans" for like strecthes of 2 hours whenever I feel like crossdressing and then go back to being cis after those 2 hours, repeating this pattern forever, I'm sure saying that has pissed some transpeople because I don't think it's helping their online reputation that some gooner weirdo who is sexually aroused at the thought of wearing girly clothes is openly admitting identifying as trans on a whim. I know for a fact there was some drama for this exact reason, but if transpeople are so hellbent on saying that my identity is invalid then I'll just silently nod and go with the flow as kids say these days.
Fuck I hate how there's nothing non-controversial about my queer identities, furry, abdl, femboy, what's next? Fuck this ugly ass planet with all the shitty ass bastards on it who don't want me to exist!